I'm very very tired after today...but it was a very rewarding day for me, the day when I'm baptised!
I'll just copy & paste from the text I read yesterday... video coming soon....
I’m here to share my rewarding journey with God.
I was born in a Christian environment as my brothers and sisters were all professed believers as I grew up, or so far as I recall. I was acquainted with the Bible as my siblings told me Bible stories. I even went to Sunday School a few times in my life during my childhood, but I didn’t like it at all, because I never felt any warmth inside. All those Bible stories may be true, but I felt that they don’t really apply to me. I was ‘ever hearing, but never understanding; ever seeing, but never perceiving’. (Isaiah 6:9) Throughout my whole childhood, maybe up till now, I’m not really the socializing type. I don’t mix well with others. I get easily offended by people and I remember things that people have done and don’t forgive them easily. True friendship eluded me for many many years. The only genuine love I’ve experienced in my life was that from my family. The outside world just seemed so cold and unfriendly towards me.
God has given me many talents, but I always thought they were a curse to me. The primary reason why I didn’t mix around easily was that I liked to share things about my life to others. And those things made me somehow hated. I was rather good at studies as I always maintained the top 3 positions in the whole level. I went for many competitions, interclass, interschool and international and won numerous prizes. In fact, after Form 5, my file containing all my certificates was bulging so much that I discarded those that were not as significant. As for piano, I passed Grade 8 with a very high mark when I was just 9. Besides that, I often participated in class lessons very actively, asking all sorts of questions and eager to learn further.Now you can see why my classmates didn’t like me a lot.
Together with one of my class teacher for 4 years, I was constantly booed and rejected by all my classmates, and quite a few of them were in fact self professed Christians. I had literally no friends at school. Nobody could ever understand how hard those years were for me. I became quite a hardened person. I harboured no trust in people at all. Of course I totally forgive them now, seeing how Jesus forgave all my sins on the cross. But returning to that point in my life, in the end I just withdrew from any social interactions and focused my full attention to competitions, studies and piano.
After that, I worked very very hard to achieve my aims, and sometimes hardwork is rewarded, and sometimes it is not. I was using achievements to try to fill the gap in my heart. But I can assure you this type of lifestyle is very tiring, and doesn’t satisfy my heart. For you can never have enough achievements. And it is especially very frustrating to see all your efforts go down the drain.
When I was in Form 4 to Form 5, I finally found some good friends. I had 3 very good friends during those years, that I will always be grateful to them for. We studied together, shared our thoughts together, and spent happy and sad times together. Although only 1 of them was a Christian(the other 2 are still unsure about their beliefs), I felt that God was working to soften my heart.
This year, everything changed. When I arrived at Melbourne, I started joining the Navigators. Although it’s not perfect with still many flaws, it encouraged me a lot. For the very first time in my life, I’m accepted genuinely for who I am, not because of what I wear, or what I achieved. For this is what the Bible says: For my yoke is easy and my burden is light(Matthew 11:30). I know that God does not require any effort from me to please him, because He loves me just as I am. This is the key to true self-esteem, knowing that you are so valuable in God’s sight that He sent his only Son to die for you. I started going out with friends, where in the past I would consider it to be a total waste of time. First time ever, that I've been able to make so many friends and feel at home, especially within the cell group, whereas normally I would be making 0 friends, and feeling cast out. I know the feeling of not 'belonging' so I tend to be very concerned about all those people without friends.
Then after that, I hurt my wrist tendon seriously from overpractising piano. It was so painful that it became impossible to even move my wrist an inch. I tried Perskindol, Yoko-yoko, and nothing worked. I was thinking of going to a doctor, but before that, I decided to try something out. That night, I deliberately prayed to God that I'll definitely believe in God if He heals my wrist miraculously after I woke up. Surprisingly, God answered my prayer! My wrist was indeed healed the next day.
After that I witnessed God's power at last, saw people really changed. Jack had 4 friends over at his home. Then somehow the topic changed to their belief in God. They were initially very resistant and cynical of the Gospel, but then I saw their faces changed so much throughout the 2 hours when Jack and my brother shared about it.
I did some surveys for Navigators that day during orientation. I can't believe I had the actual courage to approach total strangers to do surveys! My perspective of people has finally been changed by God.
I’ve just seen something very encouraging from Ken Duncan the photographer on how to respond to people’s praise. “ I’m an average photographer with a great God”. This is what I’m going to tell people when people say that I’m good. When now I consider my gifts and talents, I hope I have to courage to declare like Paul did ‘I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord’(Phillipians 3:8). For nothing compares to what Jesus has did for us, dying on our cross to save the sins of us. But this does not mean that I’ll stop working hard on my passions, which are currently music and table tennis. However, I will be trying to glorify God through them instead of glorifying myself.
PS: I'll try to post videos of the concert as soon as I'm able to get them.
and I'll start singing lessons soon